Sunday, March 12, 2017

Hey guys.

It's been a while.

There's been a common theme to my thoughts lately - the ultimate existential crisis - what am I doing with my life?

I sit in the Globe's newsroom listening to music and procrastinating a paper that I have due tomorrow and I keep focusing on this question.

Everyone I seem to meet has it all figured out - a  news anchor, a sports reporter, the owner of their own advertising agency, the next Gina Catanzarite - future plans are a very common conversation topic in college.

As I was sitting here lost in thought and writing down the next week's schedule in my agenda, it was brought to my attention that I only have 7 weeks left of my freshman year at Point Park and I am still questioning every decision I have made here thus far.

I came into this school wanting to be a sports reporter, ideally sideline/color commentary, ideally hockey. As I go through my daily classes, I am beginning to realize that I have more of a passion for news than I originally thought.

I have an internship with the Butler BlueSox over the summer, and I have pretty much been handed the reins on their broadcasts with all of their new equipment and I am so excited to get my hands on it and share my ideas with those already there.

That being said, through my work behind the scenes at school, I have also realized that I really enjoy learning about all of the inner workings of broadcasts as well.

So if you were following along,  I basically like the entirety of the Comm department.

I don't know if I even want to be on-air if I'm being perfectly honest. It would be nice, but I have hurt myself in more than one way regarding that already.

My future is a complete question mark right now, and overthinking the situation has definitely not helped. Every day, I ask myself if this major, this school, this career path was the right decision for me. It's not a good feeling to think that you could've possibly wasted a year of your life on something you aren't going to pursue. I have such a love and a passion for journalism, but I just don't know if I made the right decision.

Well, while I question every decision I've ever made,

Have a fantastic night.